Introduction and Anticipatory Grief of a Granddaughter

pinkpoppy 9 hours ago

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Hi there. I’m a granddaughter of an incredible man who has had a diagnosis of idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis for the last 8 years. He is now in his final days/weeks.

I love my grandad, so so so much. I want to know how I can try and hold back some of the crying in front of him, because he is the type that wouldn’t like to see us in pain. I have moderate/severe mental health disorders myself, and this anticipatory grief is hitting me pretty hard.

I had started making him a quilt a year ago, but got sidetracked from the project and knowing that I almost certainly will never get to even show it to him, let alone gift it, is perhaps my only regret. That regret is eating at me. We have a very close relationship and I don’t have any more regrets.

I’m just so sad. I love him. I want forever, but even more than that I don’t want him to suffer anymore. I hope to find community here.