Daffodil 2 days ago

Dear thepaintingwitch,

It is normal and natural for you to feel as you do at the moment. It sounds like there is much going through your mind.

It looks like you are considering taking up painting again as well as exercising. Perhaps you are able to take small steps in one of these directions in the next few days?

As Laura said, please feel free to use this community as a safe place to share your experiences in the future.

Take good care,

💛 Anke, a member of the Marie Curie Online Community Team

thepaintingwitch 2 days ago

Thanks a lot Anke

Is the calmness that makes me feel weird. This morning we had to meet the lawyers and it gave me so much anxiety that I needed clonazepam to calm down afterwards.

I want to do a test and spend a couple of days alone to see how I feel with no distractions but the idea is a bit scary, still I need to do this now before going back home.

Is there a chance that this is just how things will be and I’ll be calm always? There are anger episodes but overall I don’t feel sad or anything.

Somehow I still feel that I have a father and will always do maybe that’s giving me comfort?